i don't have my glasses on, it's harder to see without them. go figure.

johnzi just left. watched the rest of season 1 of the oc today. now we must get season 2. i hope family video gets it, like tomorrow. haha. after the finale, i really wanted to at least see the first episode of the 2nd season, so i downloaded it. hahaha, it only took an hour.. oyy.

so school's startin tuesdaaay. and i won't be going. woo. i hope i don't get too used to not goin to school. i need to go back. i really probably should've just stayed at parksizzle. i was already three semesters in.. why wouldn't i have just finished 4? whatever.. i'm thinking that's probably the best place to go in the fall though. however, i'm not gonna get that in-state tuition again.. unless i talk my way into it somehow.. hah. i doubt it..

it's definately gonna be nice not to be worrying about school work, essays and stuff though.. fo sho. but working full time isn't so fun either. i'm really not fond of waking up early.. never have been. haha.

so jerry apparently still wants to hang out with me, which i find rather amusing. i'm a jerk to him, i don't get why he puts up with it.. heh. he called friday to hang out yesterday and i hadn't talked to him all week. he was gonna buy my grampas house in the city, but he kinda seemed like he was dickin around my parents, so that fell through, and i was just all around bein kinda jerky to him and the last text i sent i said, "quit textin me, you're wasting my texts" haha. and he replied like whatever, sorry for wasting your time. so i didn't really expect to hear from him on fri and he was like nothing happened. seriously. don't get this guy.

had a nice relaxing day today though. last night we went to colin's. john ended up drinkin a bit more than he prolly shoulda so he passed out kinda early, i was tired, so i ended up sleepin on the couch till about 6am, then i got up and got john up and we came here. he watched the rest of the oc and ate all of the popsicles in the house while i slept. after i woke up, he slept and i watched the rest of the oc.. we orded mostacholli from roma's, got blizzards and a moolatte from dq, and watched real world/road rules challenge.

i'm very glad i am not sick anymore. it was the worst 4 days ever. not being able to swallow your own spit was totally gross and unfun. i lost like 10lbs that week cause i couldn't eat anything. i wore pants i haven't been able to wear in like three years. haha. but i'm back to my old self by now i'm sure.. i appreciate food so much more after that ordeal. haha.

HOLY CRAP. I PASSED ALL OF MY CLASSES.

i can't believe i got a c in math! omg, that is such a surprise. and in geography, i got a d. which is pretty much nice of him i think.. sigh. that is such a huge relief. now i'll feel like i've accomplished something when i get this darn little associate's degree in the mail. haha. wow, makes me wanna go and get a ba. haha.

woo. anyway, my freakin parents are not here (at work). and i am. wtf is that? gosh.

jerry and i went to the museum of science and industry last saturday. that was freakin cool. after, we went to the cheesecake factory and waited like.. almost 2 hours just to get a table, but it was freakin awesome there too. also, while we waited we walked over to fields and went shopppinngg that was sweet TOO. hahah.

when we got home, he wanted to give me my xmas present cause with the surgery and everything he wasnt sure he'd see me on xmas.. the dude bought me a necklace. and not just any necklace. its a 10k white gold little oval sapphire with three little diamonds on the top and he got a separate chain to go with it. i was like... uuuh.. what the heck.. i told him i don't deserve it and i shouldn't take it etc.. but he insisted.. gah. who does that, i've known the kid for like 3 months.. and i've been telling him over and over that i dont really want a relationship, and that we're too different and such.. even that night, at dinner i pretty much listed everything i don't like about him, but he still is cool with me.. wtf, geez. i don't get it.

jerry is home from his surgery. got home yesterday afternoon. i signed his cast.. but it's coming off tomorrow..

i 'suprised' him with a little christmas tree set up on top of his tv. he doesn't have any decorations so i thought maybe that would cheer him up a bit.

my parents finally got here i have to gooo

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so going to that ferrari class really wasn't so bad. definately stressful @ the airports, but it all worked out just dandy..

it was soo incredibly niice down there, haha. the temperature was like 72 with a nice little breeze. it was perfect. my aunt's house was awesome too..

school is all done!!! yay. that's super cool too, however, i really really really hope i passed math and geography. gawd. that would totally suck if i didn't. seriously, i really did work hard in that darn math class, i really deserve a c, if not a b. but i bet if i do pass, it'll be a d. what a freakin waste.

and geography, dont get me started. the man is crazy. its just an intro class, it's like his life. he made it waay too hard.. ugh.

went shopping till midnight with john last night. got my dad's presents, and sister's, something little for josh, i need something for my mom and friends.. oy.. so much to do, i dont even have good ideasss.

so anyway. i'm at work. and i will be full time now. sigh. i need to figure out what i want to dooo...

i'm not really sick anymore. whee.

i'm going to miami, on a BUSINESS TRIP. haha. but really, for work. alone. it's not gonna be fun to be alone. i bought the plane tickets today. i'll have to wake up at like.. freakin 4am to leave around 5 to get to milwaukee at 6ish and be on the plane and taking off at 7 i believe. geez. hopefully i understand what they're going to be teaching.. i mean i should.. but gosh, if i don't, i'll be screwed. i still need to go shoppin with my mom to get some "corporate attire" ooy. but my [crazy] aunt, uncle and cousin are down there so they'll take care of me i guess. i was supposed to just get a hotel room and such but i figure it'll be better if someones there to wake me up in the morning and get me to where i gotta go..

umm.. school is almost overrrrr. i'm happy about that. i'm not happy however about my geography grade, if i can pull it off, i will most certainly recieve a d. that sucks cause my gpa is gonna be poop. but i dont even know if i'll ever finish a BA anyway. i think i'm gonna sign up for geg121 and mth141 just incase i do in fact fail them, and if i dont i can just drop em.. yeah i think i'll do that right now.

i got my raise today. and when i start full time i'll have another $3 raise again. that's pretty effin sweet if you ask me..

i got my new computer all set up at work. it's pretty nice. fo sho. its one of those new dell xps 400s. its pretty.

still have a cough. its sucky.

my goodness it's been quite some time.

however, i just noticed that robin left me a comment saying i need to update in order to stay her friend. so update i must.

well. let's see. i guess a lot's been going on. school still sucks, i'm actually supposed to be writing a five page paper right now. the paper was due last monday. i'm so far behind. so needless to say, art isn't going too well. math sucks too. my teacher is retarded and doesn't know how to teach, there's a project due tomorrow that i also need to do tonight. geography. also incredibly horrible. liles is a freakin weirdo and he also shouldn't be teaching. its an INTRO class. lauren, who works really hard and is smart and stuff has the highest grade in the class, a C. and there is no curve. he's nuts. and english, well english is actually going quite well. even though this class is pretty much exactly like intro to lit i took a parkside.. gr.

john and i are no longer 'together' and i'm sure that makes everything 109843509845 times more frustrating and hard.. i love that kid soo much, i really do. but i think we both needed some time. i don't think i'll ever find what me and john ever had.. which leads me to my next thing, jerry.

now jerry is a super cool guy, he's very nice and seems to have his shit together, but i don't think i'm at all ready to get into something right now. i have like this guard up or something and i'm not really letting anything serious happen, but i think he's thinking otherwise. i told him this, but it's like nothing changes and gah, i dont know. i really dont care. i just want to finish this semester and pass my classes and get something going.

after this semester i'm going to work at lfsc (surprise suprise) full time. they really can use me, so many people have been fired or quit recently and i'm in an awesome position where my mom will be able to teach me whatever needs to be done. plus, doing computer/graphic stuff is also very good for me because i actually like to do it. its awesome too cause everyone thinks i'm so amazing at this stuff, when really, i'm not that good, it's really just basic kinda stuff.

we ordered me a brand new computer and i also got my adobe cs2 which excites me greatly. the software is like $2000, but i found a website that i could get the "educational version" (which is exactly the same) and it's only $375. all i had to do was fax them proof that i was a current student and a photo id. so i hope that all works out.

i'm sick too. its sucky. my nose is runny and stuffy; my head is stuffy, i just feel like poo all around. i thought i was better the other day cause, well i just felt better, but it's back.

i think i'm done here. i need to get crackin on all that homework. geesh.